Tennis Insider Club

What happens when your childhood dream becomes your worst nightmare?

In this raw, emotional conversation, Finnish tennis star Emil Ruusuvuori opens up about his four-year battle with panic attacks, burnout, and depression — including breaking down during matches and questioning the meaning of life. From rising through the ranks to cracking the Top 50, to walking away from the sport he once loved, Emil shares what no press conference ever showed.

Best Moments:

[00:04:35] “I just couldn’t breathe… My body shut down”

[00:08:20] “I didn’t care anymore if I won or lost”

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